before i get off for a little, i forgot to mention to you, i found a diary of mine i kept way back. it had a three page letter to you i wrote the day before i left for cookson.i think on our luch/shopping day im going to bring it and show you. i love you bestfriend.
Dear Period, You've Been Acting Really Odd Lately. & Quite Frankly, Its Pissing Me Off. I Know We're Not Exactly Friends, But Since You're Always Coming Around I Figured We Had Some Sort Of Level Of Respect. A Girl Shouldn't Have To Sit Around And Wonder If She's Pregnant Or Just Late, Ya Know? So... I Guess What I'm Saying Is I Miss You...Could You Come Home Now? Love, Kacey
if i could some how give you mine for the day, i would. because mine is pissing me off
2. I want my boyfriend to wake up. His presents from his family Is like a second christmas for me :) cross fingers for car back!
3.Matt keeps calling me,im considering a restraing order, merry christmas mother fucker.
4.ew still reading those names…. Stephen, dadja, makes my stomach turn
5.my mother can have her gifts back, she’s not fooling me.
6.its almost my birthday :)
7. I think my bf got me a kitty :)
8.I miss my best friend
9. I’m doing better then most people think.
10.I have less then a week to salvage whats left of 2010
not that are friendship isnt something i worry about, im just learning what to focus my energy on. i know were in a fucked up place. but come on, do you really believe its going to stay this way? people take different paths in there life, some way different then others. they see different things, hear different things, and experience different things, but somehow still manage to meet at the end of the road.
as i lay here, by your side while you sleep. i see how beautiful you really are.
i love you, more then you think. i know it scares you that one day i will just leave, i fear that about myself everyday. its what i do, i leave. to see what you gave up for me, and the things you lack you work daily to fix, they dont go un-seen. i forget how lucky i have it sometimes.
things have been so numb. i know i put my self in these positions. i dont blame anyone. why should there be any blame at all. im not worried about the future as much as i should be. sometimes i wish i had more life experience in the ways the world never offered me. maybe thats why this is happening right now, to give me the life experiences i needed to grow up, to move up. thats what life is all about right, gathering your life experiences. it feel like i have been through it all, and seen it all..then life gives another twist to this chapter, to this book. at least my story will move you, its still moving me.