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i love you jude, my beautiful new boy :)

music and friends, the cure for all.

i just thank you so much, i could go in detail on what just happened but i dont even have to……..

all im going to say is i will never do dmt. i have no need to, i can experience it naturally. im still in shock, i can barely talk…even writing witch is my passion is hard to get the words out. maybe i will just let the tears flow for a while and mediate.

i feel so stupid for feelings like this. i feel like i should have thought everything out first, i cant regret you because i love you, i cant cuddle with you because that makes my chubby love sad, i cant make anyone happy, and thats all i want..is to please everyone i love but in the end someone and something keeps getting hurt.

all i can do is love on all of you the  same, and hope that you can feel my energy…please feel my energy…

i love you marygold, you were my first. your my bestfriend. you comfort me more then most people are even capable of doing. i love you tiger lilly, your so beautiful.. you have these motherly instincts that i just freaking adore, you have the most beautiful soul i have ever seen in a cat. then theres jude, sweet little jude…..your teaching me more then you will ever know, but how i love you so so so much.

yes, i cry for my cats. no, you probably wouldnt understand.

I swear we were abducted last night.

About to jam downtown with jonny Christian and Vinny. Then kayaking :)

ashlynnjones:

just isn’t what it used to be. Nothing fucks me up anymore, I just go into a zone out state of mind or a haze where I can’t think. Sober feels intoxicated, but it’s boring. it’s like, wheres the reason? I feel like I have it all figured out, but none of it matters. I’m just another season.

i think i started to figure out why that was with me to. but i think a lot of it has to be with the people your with. when im with my family and we trip, its not like were “fucked up” i feel like were exercising our third eyes, and to me thats the most beautiful trip.

i cant stand our society. reading about how our government is contacting all these un contacted tribes that have been here since the beginning of time. if they wanted to contact us they would! but why would they? THERE LIVING THE LIFE THEY WANT TO LIVE. they walk around naked, they hunt for food, there loving parents, and good fighters. just recently these tribes were invaded by Americans, it spread diseases and killed hundreds of them! a simple common flue could swipe them clean! this tribe leader was talking on an interview saying “if they took these rocks we live on, we would no longer be a able to survive.” that breaks my heart. its so beautiful watching these tribes live such a free life, the natural life, and its such an awful thing to see people trying to take that away.

i dont want the sparks to end.