Energy and vibes scream louder then any words ever could! When we are truly ourselves, were awake among sleeping people. The energy that radiates from us awakens others. The words we say mean nothing- it’s our energy that transforms.
I love the story of the bee and the flower. The bee comes to the honey flower for honey, and the flower happily gives what it has without question. LIVE IN THIS WAY: ask for what you need, and give what you have when asked to help.
the pow wow with your family last night was so powerful, i could see the change in your tears. its a new beginning, a fresh start. the pipes are put down, rents been made, all the pills have been flushed, and were on the hunt for jobs today. everyday will be a daily struggle but for the friends that have stuck by my side through it all, i love you, and for the people you doubt me, i love you to. because what Buddha has taught me is to love your enemies, for if they were not there you would never no what you didnt want to be.
there will be no sex-sex was made to with that one special person
you will start to listen to you inner voice
your going to start therapy/detox
you will find happiness in things, in yourself
you will control your anger
you will start your daily mediation
you will find yourself again
by the end of this, i truly believe you will can be the prince charming you want to be. until then were starting from square one. i need to be taken away from the equation for you to find happiness in something other then me.
your speech was beautiful, but your actions are all i care about. this is our last chance at love with each other. i will not give up on you, but i will not sacrafice my happiness for yours, i cant. i only have this life, i will not waste it. after everything i have complete faith in you. 1 strike though, and your out. i love you more then anything, but i have to listin to my head and my heart.
does it make you feel like a man when you hit me. does it make you feel any “bigger” when you over power me. i can hear you crying from the other room, for the first time i dont care. im not cold hearted, i loved you to the best i could. you want me, you want rehab, you wont drugs, you want sobriety MAKE UP YOUR OWN DAMN MIND. your right about one thing though darling, there our a MILLION other men out there that will treat me like a princess. im strong, i willl fight and defend for my own, im tiny but you better believe i will take over anything. writing is my mediation, what yours? you can read your zen book over and over but until you start to live it, it means nothing.
PLEASE STOP TELLING ME YOU LOVE ME, your just like my father, and honey thats someone you dont want to be. I am fully capable of living on my own, making my own money. you tell me your happiness comes from my happiness, thats where were different, I DONT NEED ANYONE TO MAKE ME HAPPY, and NEITHER SHOULD YOU. find yourself, some where you got lost…..untill then i have another bedroom you may sleep in, or i can always rent it out. I am independent, i dont need you like you need me.
i love you, but that dosnt mean i have to sacrifice my happiness and life. i made a list of qualities in a man when i was 12, that would determine who I would give my heart too, i promised myself if they didnt make the cut, there out. i dont break my promises.